I came across something, today, that made me think of something else. A long, Long time ago, I blogged the lyrics as well as the video to this song...

Twice I turn my back on you
I fell flat on my face but didn’t lose
Tell me where would I go
Tell me what led you on, I’d love to know
Was it the blue night
Gone fragile
Was it both men
In wonder steady gone under
Was it the light ways
So frightening
Was it two wills
One mirror holding us dearer now
Thought I had an answer once
But your random ways swept me along
Colossal signs so I got lost
With so many lovers singing soft
Was it the blue night
Gone fragile
Was it both men
In wonder steady gone under
Was it the light ways
So frightening
Was it two wills
One mirror holding us dearer now

... when I think of the song, I think of the video... and sometimes I feel like the skeleton but more often than not, I am the bird. Right now, I'm the bird.

....

I'm still lost about what I want to do right now. I'm afraid that whatever choice I make will be the wrong one. Part of me, though, knows that no matter what choice I make, it will be the right one.

The smart thing to do would be to stay.

I know I'm not going to get either of the jobs I applied for...

I just don't know.

Right now I am definitely leaning towards staying here if I don't get one of those positions... but... I really want to move out there. I'm growing restless here.

I've grown in to the person I'm going to be here, but I know I can be more.

....

I want to
I want to be someone else or I'll explode
Floating upon this surface for the birds
the birds,
the birds.
You want me?
Well, come and find me.
I'll be waiting
With a gun and a pack of sandwiches,
And nothing... nothing... nothing....
You want me?
Well, come and break the door down.
You want me?
Come and break the door down.
I'm ready... I'm ready... I'm ready...