I cannot stay all sleepless like you could.... because I cannot play a lullabye like it should...

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I haven't blogged much lately.

Nope.

Sure haven't.

Unmotivited.

Tired.

Working a lot.

Need a break.

A break from a lot of things.

There's something I don't want a break from, though... but...

It is what it is.

Isn't it?

It sure appears to be.

But things aren't always what they appear...

This is, though.

So....

Yeah.

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I'm at war with head versus heart, its always this way.... My head is weak, my heart always speaks before I know what it will say

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i'm only happy when it rains... i'm only happy when it's complicated... i know you can appreciate it... i'm only happy when it rains... i love it when the music's bad... maybe that's why i feel so sad... pour your misery down... pour your misery down on me...

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Something is going to happen... I just don't know what.

I don't know what I want right now, either.... that's what makes it really hard. I mean, there are a lot of things that I want... but how many of those things are really good for me? Is a cheeseburger at 1am really the answer? i don't think so....

Speaking of cheeseburgers... my weight has been doing funny things lately. Not sure what the deal is, but I lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. then gained back 10. then lost 5. then gained the 5 back.

anyways... i'm tired. so very tired. cannot wait until friday... my day off.... not sure what I'm doing yet, but I think a trip to Bradenton for a 5 scoop reeces pieces sunday might be in order. not sure if I want to make that drive alone, though, just for some ice cream .. ..... ...... we'll see what happens, I guess.