sometimes i think i'm crazy. i really do. especially on im.

FRIEND (12:30:09 AM): im trying to blog but you keep distracting me, so im gonna shut you out for like 15 minutes
Doobers18 (12:30:16 AM): wtf?
Doobers18 (12:30:18 AM): you can't do that!
FRIEND (12:30:18 AM): hahahaha
FRIEND (12:30:20 AM): i need to
Doobers18 (12:30:24 AM): !!!
FRIEND (12:30:27 AM): sorry
Doobers18 (12:30:30 AM): fine.
Doobers18 (12:30:32 AM): I see how it is.
Doobers18 (12:30:33 AM): fucker.
FRIEND (12:30:38 AM):
Doobers18 (12:30:39 AM): go
Doobers18 (12:30:40 AM): go
Doobers18 (12:30:44 AM): write your fucking blog.
Doobers18 (12:30:47 AM): see if I fucking care.
Doobers18 (12:30:49 AM): ignore me.
Doobers18 (12:30:51 AM): everyone else does.
Doobers18 (12:30:54 AM): maybe I'll call Batgirl
Doobers18 (12:31:00 AM): or im you.
Doobers18 (12:31:02 AM): it's all the same.
Doobers18 (12:31:05 AM): silence....
Doobers18 (12:31:08 AM): nothing.
Doobers18 (12:31:11 AM): no love.
Doobers18 (12:31:13 AM): no respect.
Doobers18 (12:31:15 AM): just
Doobers18 (12:31:16 AM): empty
Doobers18 (12:31:17 AM): space
Doobers18 (12:31:24 AM): good thing I have my beer to cheer me up
Doobers18 (12:31:27 AM): or at least
Doobers18 (12:31:29 AM): make me forget
Doobers18 (12:31:31 AM): for a little while
Doobers18 (12:31:36 AM): nursing the bottle
Doobers18 (12:31:43 AM): like I was a baby
Doobers18 (12:31:45 AM): drinking
Doobers18 (12:31:46 AM): to feel alive
Doobers18 (12:31:57 AM): but now
Doobers18 (12:31:59 AM): drinking
Doobers18 (12:32:04 AM): to feel ... nothing at all.
Doobers18 (12:32:07 AM): to numb the pain
Doobers18 (12:32:12 AM): to numb the world.
Doobers18 (12:32:19 AM): because the world is pain.
Doobers18 (12:32:23 AM): that's all it brings
Doobers18 (12:32:24 AM): sorrow
Doobers18 (12:32:28 AM): heartache
Doobers18 (12:32:32 AM): pain.
Doobers18 (12:32:45 AM): life is pain.
Doobers18 (12:33:00 AM): sometimes I close my eyes and wish it would all just go away
Doobers18 (12:33:15 AM): I feel the sweat pouring down my back as I take another sip from the bottle
Doobers18 (12:33:21 AM): it's almost empty now
Doobers18 (12:33:22 AM): just like me
Doobers18 (12:33:28 AM): warm
Doobers18 (12:33:29 AM): empty
Doobers18 (12:33:30 AM): and alone
Doobers18 (12:33:34 AM): the last of it's kind.
Doobers18 (12:33:36 AM): once it's gone
Doobers18 (12:33:38 AM): it's gone
Doobers18 (12:33:40 AM): forever.
Doobers18 (12:33:45 AM): but really
Doobers18 (12:33:47 AM): is that so bad?
Doobers18 (12:34:07 AM): since when are endings something to be feared?
Doobers18 (12:34:15 AM): they shouldn't be
Doobers18 (12:34:22 AM): endings are really just beginnings.
Doobers18 (12:34:43 AM): when life ends, an eternity without it's pain begins.
Doobers18 (12:34:49 AM): ok.
Doobers18 (12:34:52 AM): I can't do this anymore.
Doobers18 (12:34:56 AM): I'm really not this depressed.
Doobers18 (12:35:03 AM): it's hard to come up with shit like that when you're smiling.
Doobers18 (12:35:05 AM): fucking hard as shit.
Doobers18 (12:35:07 AM): old shit.
Doobers18 (12:35:08 AM): hard shit.
Doobers18 (12:35:12 AM): petrified poop.