nobody notices the contrast between white on white
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So... yeah. I'm preparing for the holidays. I know they're a ways away, but they're different for me. The wonders of working in retail. its madness. madness, i say! and when i say that i'm preparing for the holidays, i'm not talking about in a work sense, though i'm doing that too. these next few months are amazing times to work in retail. it's busy beyond belief. that means lots of days running around talking to as many people as possible. keeping the troups going. all in all, just making sure every single person i talk to leaves me with a smile on their face, customer and employee alike. if i manage to do that, the business results will come. they always have and they always will.

here's the hardest part, though.

in order for me to keep everyone else smiling, it means i have to keep smiling myself.

some days its easy.

some days it isn't.

i work so hard to make sure no one can tell if its a good day or a bad day, all they know is that i'm smiling and they are too.

i miss you mom. i miss you dad. i miss you grandpa abah and grandma eemah. i miss you gramma and grampa. i miss you eric. i miss you bob. i miss my family spread around the country. i miss my friends spread around the world. i miss the past and i miss really looking forward to the future.

ok, that last one was a little harsh... it's not that i don't look forward to the future, because i do... but i miss having something definitive in the future to look forward to.

anyways...

these next three months are going to absolutely fly by, but each night is going to feel like an eternity.

good night, dear reader.... good night.